Foolish beverage combination

Yesterday I thought I'd be a little creative with my hot chocolate (which I don't drink that often, before you preach that it's so sugary.  Not that that ever stops me), and put some Raspberry Ice Crystal Light with it, just to see what it would taste like.  It actually wouldn't have been bad if I didn't put too much CL in. It came out kind of gross and couldn't finish it.  I am going to try again with less CL, and if it's still gross, I'll deem it a failure and keep drinking the hot chocolate straight.

Today I see the first evidence of a cold, so I just made some tea.  It's from Celestial Seasonings, and it's White tea with Schizanda Berries.  I always take my tea with 2 Sugar Twins, but since I have this cold coming on, I wanted some honey with it, and I must say, the honey taste mingling with the tea taste is quite nomulent.  Better than yesterday's disaster.

OMG Terra Chips!

Curse the day I discovered Terra Chips!


These bad boys are so delicious! They're made of other root vegetables like taro and sweet potato, and when I'm jonesing, I'm j0nesing hard.

The problem with them is that I can only find them at Shoppers Drug Mart, and even then, they're not at every one. Luckily for me I can usually find them at the Shoppers near my house, but at the one near my office, they're not there (maybe I should try the store that's a little further out if I'm craving them that badly). They used to be, but I have a feeling I bought the last bag all those weeks ago.

Another problem with these chips is that they're TOTALLY UNDERMINING MY ATTEMPT AT KEEPING THE WEIGHT OFF! I'll go to the gym, work my ass off, get a little hint of a low blood sugar episode, and then stop in to buy them! Okay, it's not all their fault. I have little willpower as it is, but must they always tempt me with their siren song? I would like to believe that they're healthier for me, since they're not regular potato chips, but how healthy can they be when you eat the whole bag by yourself in a short time span?

Still, I'll maybe have a bag a week or two, but I should cut this out. I have a few weddings coming up that I really need to shed some pounds for, and I have this damn beetus that I should be taking better care of, but these chips are like a man that treats you badly, but you keep coming back for more.

Hey, at least it isn't chocolate.

Really frigging horrible

I can't believe that for the past, say, month, I've only been to the gym 3 times! WTF? Okay, I was sick for a week out of that, and the monthly Mother Nature visit too, but it's mostly because I have to live my life on other people's schedules, and frankly I'm sick of it.

Ack!

I am currently partaking in a substantial slice of cheesecake.

I promised myself I would never willingly eat cheesecake ever again.

I feel so disgusted with myself.

WTF?

Went to the optometrist last night. No diabetic retinopathy, but buddy tells me I am starting to get cataracts.

Dude, I'm only 27!

Damn.

Old Friends

Today was the second time I've seen her, but I ran into Jemima, a lady who used to work with us, at my gym. I thought it was pretty cool to see her again. At least I don't feel left out by not knowing or talking to anyone while I'm there. It seems the school people I used to see don't go anymore.

Glucometer: $20

Test strips: $80 for a box of 100

Having a grandmother who uses the same glucometer and test strips, but not as often so I get her extras: priceless

Slipping already?

Last night I was pretty close to skipping the gym. Now, I won't go if I don't have a way to get there, obviously, but last night I had my mother's car (my own always seems to be borrowed by my freeloading sister). There would have been no reason for me not to go. Plus I had a lot of reason to go, what with the trail mix and the pasta I had for dinner. I'm glad I manned up and went in the end. No slipping up!

huh?

Last night I had a vanilla sundae from McDonald's, and I was regretting it the whole night, expecting my blood sugar to be so high when I checked it before bed, but when I did check, it was low! WTF?

Overnight Lows

So I finally had my first overnight low since going back to the gym (which I am actually reluctant to call "overnight" because I got up at 5:30 to treat it, and I normally wake up at 6:00). I even shot less insulin before bed!

Oh well, it happens once in a while, just have to roll with it, although I wish it would happen less. I have enough trouble sleeping through the whole night without having to get up in the middle of it to stuff my face so I don't die. Plus it defeats the purpose of working out.

Mondays at the Gym

Considerably different than Fridays. It's like people have a New Week's Resolution every Monday to start working out again. The place is packed!

When it's like that, I usually have to wait for a treadmill. I could do something else in the meantime, but I had already done 20 minutes on the bike and 10 on the elliptical, so I was ready for something (relatively) easier.

Luckily for us, a long time ago the staff realized that there were always line-ups for the treadmills, so they put a few more on the weights floor, and that's where I ended up tonight. I don't usually like it down there because I have to try and avoid eye contact with all the sweaty men on the weight machines. On top of that, the tv on my treadmill was wonky, so I was left to inspect the lighting, the pictures on the wall, and what was going on outside.

All in all, it was good. I went early, and came back early, so I'll jump in the shower and get a reasonable amount of sleep.

Fridays at the Gym

Gym was good tonight. I had the luxury of staying a little longer since I don't have to get up early to go to work, but I'm not more tired than usual. It's also nice and quiet at the gym on a Friday, since most people have better plans, so I didn't have to wait for a machine.

I also saw someone I went to school with, but never talked to, and saw the other diabetic girl at my school when I stopped in at Walmart before my workout. That was kinda nice. There is usually someone else from school I see, but it has been so long since the last time I was in my "yes I am using my gym membership" phase that he could be off of his.

Oh well, it was a good workout and I am going to go shower now.

The Gym

Yay! I did it! I went back to the gym after...what? A year and a half, almost? Anyway, it has been too long and I'm glad to be back.

It was like I never left either, except that I didn't remember my lock code and I spent another 5 minutes in the car before I went it figuring it out, and they updated a lot of machines. It was pretty painless, too. Okay, I didn't work out as hard as I used to, but I also haven't been in a year and a half so I couldn't over-do it right away. No eye-candy stood out either, but most of the time I'm not even looking at other people, so no loss.

I also thought I had my insulin-to-exercise ratio right last night, because I didn't feel like crap when I got out, but I did find I was low when I checked my blood sugar level before bed.

All in all it was pretty good. I hope not to drop off again, at least until I have to fit into that bridesmaid dress for the last time. And I won't have to feel like an ass everytime my endo asks me if I exercise.

I don't know why,

...but I can never get my insulin to exercise ratio right. I worked out earlier, and now my blood sugar is low. I know I'm supposed to take less insulin when I plan to work out, and I do, but it still always seems to be too much.

Either that, or eat more carbs before I go work out. But that defeats the purpose.

YAY!

I did it! I finally worked out! Okay, it was in my basement on 30+-year-old equipment, but it's a start! I wanted to go to the gym but I never seem to have use of my OWN car unless it's a completely useless time to go anywhere. I'd rant about that, but that's for my other blog. Right now I'm just glad that I got started and hopefully I can go to the gym tomorrow night, if it doesn't get too late.

I'm hoping there's some new eye candy to scope too, since it has been a while since I've been.

I'm a damned fool

Yesterday I bought a new box of insulin. I put it in the fridge at work. I leave it in the fridge at work. It was supposed to come home with me.

I was lucky I had just enough to get me through dinner and breakfast this morning. Hopefully I don't forget it here again tonight. Someone remind me!

Crystal Light

So I've taken to drinking those Crystal Light Singles that you mix into a 500 mL water bottle, and they're great. I used to drink that stuff a lot when I was first diagnosed, but it isn't convenient to carry around a 2L bottle wherever you go, so I'm glad they make singles.

All I ask is that they make it so it doesn't stain my mouth red so that I look like a little caker kid whose parents forgot what a napkin is in their old age.

Well, that confirms it...

I was right about my cousin asking me to be her bridesmaid. That means getting hopping on some weight loss.

The easiest thing to do right now is to cut out the crap in my diet. Oh sure, we all say that, and we all cave. Thing is, I've done it before. I was a pro-star for about a year, not eating any junk food. I would imagine that it would poison my blood, make it goopy and chunky. Gross, I know, but it worked. I also went to the gym during this period, so I did lose some weight. It feels good being told you've lost weight too. Nowadays when people tell me I've lost weight, it's on days I'm wearing Spanx!

I just have to re-adopt this mentality. It's good for my heart and my diabetes. And if I have to snack, or if the blood sugar is low and I really need to eat something, I need to choose something smart. It can be done, and now I have a reason. Not that being healthy isn't reason enough, but a girl with almost zero willpower needs some extra incentive.

Let's see how far my good intentions can take me this time.

Bloggerhans?

Just because I don't' want to neglect this blog before I really get into using it, I thought I'd explain the name I gave it.

The Islets of Langerhans is the area in the pancreas where hormones are produced, insulin being the hormone of interest for this blog. Therefore, Bloggerhans is a play on that, since I'm going to be blogging about my faulty pancreas. Aren't I clever.

Oh Hai

I haven't been to the gym since maybe November of 2007. This is ridiculous. I am going to go back. I really am.

My cousin's getting married, and I think she's going to ask me to be one of her bridesmaids, so if I want to look half-decent in a bridesmaid dress and not mar her wedding pictures, I'd better shed some pounds.

Also, I'm thinking I should go on an insulin pump, as my endocrinologist keeps bugging me to do. He says I'm a perfect candidate since I track my blood sugars so well and try to keep generally healthy.

This blog will hopefully help me keep track of the progress in both these areas.